Chapter 13 - THE MAN HE CHOSE TO BECOME
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Adrian asked me to dinner three weeks later.
Not through an assistant.
Not through Rachel.
Not with flowers, jewelry, or a restaurant reservation impossible to refuse.
He called.
“Would you have dinner with me?”
I sat at my kitchen counter.
“Is this a date?”
“Yes.”
“That sounds dangerous.”
“I’ve heard.”
“What happens if I say no?”
“I eat alone.”
The answer made me smile.
“What restaurant?”
“Your choice.”
“No private dining room?”
“No.”
“No security clearing the kitchen?”
He paused.
“One man outside.”
“Adrian.”
“He’ll sit in a car.”
I laughed.
“Fine.”
We met at a small Italian restaurant in Toronto.
Adrian arrived early.
That alone was new.
During our marriage, crime apparently never respected dinner reservations.
He wore a dark sweater rather than a suit.
I stared.
“What?”
“I wasn’t aware you owned clothes without lapels.”
“I recently discovered stores sell them.”
Dinner was awkward at first.
Then strangely easy.
We spoke about Eleanor.
The restitution project.
Sofia.
Adrian told me he was selling Moretti Tower.
“What?”
“It’s too large.”
“You once said the building represented your family.”
“It does.”
“And?”
“My family did many things I no longer want represented.”
That was not the Adrian I married.
I studied him.
“Why did you really dismantle the businesses?”
He looked down at his glass.
“After you left, I kept thinking the problem was Sofia.”
“At first.”
“Yes.”
“Then?”
“Then I realized if it hadn’t been Sofia, eventually it would have been something else.”
“What do you mean?”
“I built my life around command.”
His voice remained calm.
“People obeyed because refusing had consequences. Employees. Rivals. Friends.”
He looked at me.
“I brought that home.”
My chest tightened.
“You never threatened me.”
“No.”
“But I expected obedience.”
“Yes.”
He nodded.
“And when you disagreed, I treated your disagreement like a problem to manage.”
There it was.
The truth in plain language.
“I started seeing a therapist.”
I nearly dropped my fork.
Adrian frowned.
“That reaction is insulting.”
“You once told me therapy was for people who enjoyed discussing childhood.”
“I was an idiot.”
“Yes.”
“Apparently childhood is relevant.”
I laughed so hard the couple beside us looked over.
Adrian smiled.
I had forgotten how handsome he looked when he smiled without restraint.
Dangerous thought.
After dinner, we walked.
No armored convoy.
No team clearing sidewalks.
Just cold Toronto air.
“Why didn’t you contact me all year?” I asked.
“Because goodbye was the first boundary you trusted me to respect.”
“That sounds rehearsed.”
“I’ve had twelve months.”
“Fair.”
We reached my apartment building.
Adrian stopped.
“I won’t ask to come upstairs.”
“Good.”
“I want to see you again.”
I looked at him.
Maybe this was where stories were supposed to become easy.
The divorced couple reconciles.
The powerful man changes.
The woman realizes love conquers everything.
Real life was uglier.
And better.
“I don’t trust you yet.”
Adrian nodded.
“I know.”
“I might never trust you the way I did.”
“You shouldn’t.”
That surprised me.
“Excuse me?”
“You trusted me without requiring proof.”
He stepped closer.
“I want you to require proof.”
My eyes burned.
“Adrian.”
“I don’t want our old marriage back.”
I stared at him.
“Neither do I.”
“If there is ever anything between us again, I want it built differently.”
Snow began falling.
Of course it did.
Snow had always followed us.
“What does differently mean?” I asked.
“You choose where you live.”
“Toronto.”
“Then Toronto.”
“You don’t control my work.”
“I wouldn’t.”
“I keep separate finances.”
“Yes.”
“No hidden security.”
“Yes.”
“No deciding what information is too upsetting for me.”
“Yes.”
“And if your world becomes dangerous again?”
His expression changed.
“I leave the danger before I ask you to live inside it.”
That answer mattered.
Maybe too much.
I touched his coat.
Not an embrace.
Just proof he was real.
Adrian looked down at my hand.
Then back at me.
He did not move closer.
Did not touch me.
Did not assume.
So I kissed him.
Once.
Softly.
His entire body froze.
When I pulled back, his eyes were almost black.
“That,” I whispered, “was not forgiveness either.”
“I wouldn’t dare suggest it.”
I smiled.
“Goodnight, Adrian.”
“Goodnight, Claire.”
I went upstairs.
He stayed outside until the lobby door closed.
May you like
For the first time in our history, wanting him did not feel like surrender.
Because this time, I had walked toward him.
